I won't fall behind...I swear.

Lately, i feel like all my friends are beating me in all the aspects i was suppose to be good at. I feel like i need to work on it, i know i suck at bboying and making friends and whatnot. Honestly, i don't even know why i don't do it. What do i fear? Bleh >< sorry for not posting for a while, i kinda didn't know what to blog about, and sorry for the first proper post in 1(?) month being so depressing.

Fucking pissing me off!!

Why is it that family tells you off for the littlest of things? Fair enough, I didn't suffer war or whatever, but I spend my time trying to get good grades so Ican make your lives better in the future. When I say I can't think of it, or i wasn't paying attention, then get the idea. I DIDN'T FUCKING PREPARE A DAMN RESPONSE! I don't think past 2 am when my attention is diverted into other things such as studying or gaming. I fucking only sleep this late because i have 1/4 of my days(not including the time i spend sleeping) being told off by a family member. FUCKING PISSES ME OFF, EVEN WHEN I'M DOING THE RIGHT THINGS =.=. I can agree if i am gaming on a school day, but come on 5-10 FUCKING MINUTES WON'T KILL ANYONE! Tch, now I'm wasting more time blogging when i could be in bed by now(or at least brushing my teeth).

AND FUCKING HELL, ALWAYS FUCKING TAKE AWAY 30 MINUTES OF MY SLEEP TIME BY TELLING ME OFF FOR 30 MINUTES LATE AT NIGHT. GEEZ!

Bloody hell. My life has been going down hill ever since i lost my wallet. I honestly need to find it soon, or at least hope that someone will return it.

Sorry guys for not posting anything for a while. It's just i don't have anything to post about.

My brain = Biggest troll

Ahh well, I guess it's self karma. Basically for the past few days I've been having dreams of being in a relationship == BLAH sucks when you're single and your brain is trolling you.

Responsibility.

Just now, i decided to think about my future. I know i am forced to have more responsibility than the average man. Reason: i am going to be a heir of my dad's side of the family. Yes it may not sound like much work, but i have to support them through money, bonding and the occasional family fights. Lucky for me, my dad has the role right now, so i am safe for now. However, that isn't always going to be the case. I don't know if i will ever be able to rise to the occasion and support my extended family. But still, even though i know this will happen, i can't help but think about what i will be able to do. I'm just not ready for responsibilities yet.

Man i should start learning freerunning properly

Yeah, okay i free run like a noob and that's why i want to improve properly. I found out that my style of learning involves variations not the proper... soo this might get a little hard.

Everyday

Quite recently, I've been feeling angry at myself. Angry at the things I would have done, could have done and should have done. I'm more angry at my failures because I used to just laugh it off as if it was nothing. Now, it's different. Now, I want fix my mistakes, I want to be able to feel like I've actually accomplished something over putting it off and saying "Oh you know, i still have time." I know that i may be running out of time.

I get angry at the smallest things, an example of this is me looking at my table. It is a mess. I know that many people out there have messy tables, but the fact is I'm not angry at the table. The table makes me think about myself, which is currently failing in every aspect(that being said, views will change over time, and i didn't want to sound pessimistic).

I don't know why i am so angry with myself. Maybe it's the lack of progress, or maybe it's because I am just sitting around and doing nothing. That may be the cause of all this anger.

We are all getting old

So recently i looked at my dad's hair colour, it was greyer than usual. It really makes me sad to know that one day someone bad will happen. So, i want everyone to know that: one day we all will grow old and die. DO SOMETHING WITH YOUR PARENTS BEFORE THEY DIE! REGRET NOTHING! DO EVERYTHING YOU'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE AND BEFORE YOU REGRET NOT DOING ANYTHING WITH THEM. Remember, although we all die at one point, we want to live our life to the fullest. That means, doing things for others especially for those who have done so much for us. I want to make my Mum and Dad proud before they die or before anything bad happens to them. I wrote up this post because yeah, it hit a gigantic emotional point in my body.

Camp

Camp was awesome! I think i had bonded closes to many people i wasn't close to but yeah idk. But that being said CAMP WAS AWESOME!!
So the story went along the lines of this:
Went on bus trip, was alright nothing special. Was kind of quiet though.
Arrived there picked our cabins and everyone had a random activity group because well we never had a decision to make our own group, or it was because the PE staffroom wasn't organised enough to give us a group.
Then we went to do our activities. My first one was Crossroads session. was not fun but hey, at least that was out of the way.
The second activity was challenge ropes where we had to go through obstacles at high altitudes.
LOL OMG SIMONE WAS THE FUNNIEST AT THE CHALLENGE ROPES, SHE SCREAMED THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE THING(sort of).
We had dinner, it was crap.
Then we had challenge night. Challenge night was awesome because our team won, I wanted to name our team poor hub but everyone agreed on Epic Fail. I think Friday won the most points for us.
And then we went sleep
The next day:
I had crossroads session again. was boring, half of us were half asleep.
then we had flying fox, man that was fun! but it was too short D:
We had lunch again, it was still crap
After we did mud world and kayaking. MUD WORLD WAS SOO DAMN DIRTY!! kayaking was funny because i kept on splashing at Jessica. After camp I still had black shit in my nose but hey it was awesome. After kayaking i tried to learn a new move but failed. I also tried to practice my hand stands.
We had disco later that night
Disco wasn't the best but hey i tried to get vincinet and david to dance but couldn't. I bboyed a bit at the disco.
The next day dablan was freaking annoying, went around knocking on the door shouting "WAKE UP" repeatedly.
We had leap of faith and abseiling. Abseiling was the only one that made me even partially scared.
Food was shit, nothing i generally liked.Not even the cereal.
After we did all that we went home, half of us were sleeping on the bus.

Overall camp was awesome! we had mad as instructors and yeah watching people scream was funny.

Camp soon

Excited but most likely will be disappointed because of the rain T_T
ahh well needa make a to buy list

Disney period

After a day of dancing i felt like going into a Disney period LOL idk