There is no stigma anymore...

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I lose this round...

Lately(well more then lately), i have been letting myself down ALOT...
i say to myself that i will change and talk to people more but i end up screwing up and just being quiet >.<... farh i needa change...

well actaully i just need to know how to reply to certain things..instead of having my standard responses
e.g. huh? or okay... or uhh yeah sure.. or stfu!

yeah generally i will need to know about what stuff to talk about at the right moment

The archer, the bandit and the warrior

So this is what the title means..

- The Archer with the jaguar is suppose to represent skill,speed and ability to aim further then anyone can
- The Bandit is suppose to represent lust, temptation and giving in to your desires
- The Warrior is suppose to represent justice and power

how this makes any sense...idk to be honest
i just came up with this title because of a dream i had...
for some reason i was originally an archer but then i changed to a bandit and at around the end of the dream i became a warrior/fighter/swordsman w/e.

my point is i guess these three classes represent me in some way...
- The Archer because i always like to learn new stuff from people and i always want to aim further in life
- The Bandit because that side of me... no one sees :) that is what makes it so sly(not really LOL)
- The Warrior because i am one for justice but i am not always doing the right thing though

Toy Story 3

T_T omg it's such a good movie... i pretty much cried at the end

SPOILER ALERT!!
so yeah.. when andy left the toys it was soo sad... but it's kinda good that the writers made him play with his toys one last time..
thats pretty much my childhood gone now...
SPOILER END!

yeah so... i pretty much grew up with 2 things...
games and disney movies...

and now that disney movies are gone... thats half my child hood gone
and since school is getting harder and i need to spend more time to study and less time for gaming... that makes it a total of 3 quarters of my childhood gone.. and im only 16 T_T

also the feeling of nostalgia is the best!

Love, Sex and Drugs

Those are the three things that concern people's adolescence these days... and i bet it will be like this until the government decides to go all around the world to get rid of all the drugs so they can do use it for themselves..

but seriously though... im our society now
Everybody, no matter what age, is looking for love.
About 60% or above of teens are looking for emotionless sex.
About 2 thirds of teens are going out and going into a smoke joint to do drugs
note: this is just an approximation... because i have no clue what the numbers actually are but just by analyzing i can guess that this is around correct.

but yeah.. my point is that we need to stop what we're doing and start doing what we're not

A Story

The story is only the start.. there is no end until you have finished it, but when you do it will be worth it, you are nowhere near the end just yet... so hurry up and finish your story.

The story continues with pain that can easily be dealt with(most of the time) but this is only chapter two of the book.

I think I've posted this before... idk i can't remember

Tsuioku merry go round

I think i've used this title before but meh.

Okay so recently I had this dream. I was at tutor with Shaw. This tutor was about cancers for dad in dreams. Yeah... So then in the middle somewhere I played with my ipod and the song 'Tsuioku merry go round' came on and so I searched for what the lyrics were in english and I found out that the lyrics in English said:

Merry-Go-Round
Spinning in a world of dreams
The silhouette you left behind
Chases after the morning sun

and yeah... Lately, I have been dreaming A LOT! I'm kinda on a line where I don't know what is real or fake anymore. Thats why I keep a reality check as close to me as possible (the anchor on my hand)

Generally i've been yearning to something different in my life to happen. Something that's more than meeting new people and being able to get high grades.

Looking back..

i originally thought the idea of a blog would be stupid and all that... but eventaully i grew to make it part of me...

i don't blog daily or regularly but when i do i will post 3-4 posts at the same time...yeah... truth is i don't really have anyone where i can relate to and talk to... maybe 1 or 2 friends which i annoy the fuck out of but... yeah no one in general where i can have a deep and meaningful talk with.... maybe its just me... maybe there are hundreds... no maybe almost all teenagers are suffering the same problems..tch whatever... my point is: Generally I'm in the section of teenagers who only has a few friends(literally...my group is only about 5 people or so.. sometimes it's bigger because there are people that come and go...) and only 2 of them are considered as real friends.generally blogging is the only way to get my thoughts out without it intervening with other people's lives.

Okay to sum this up...
-I thought this blog was dumb at the beginning but in the end i realized i was wrong.
-blogging is the only way to keep my mind intact so that i don't go crazy...(that and reality checks)

I don't know, I don't think I'll ever know and to be honest I don't want to know

idk.. i just felt like posting that... lately everything has been difficult... i need to stop what I'm doing while i still can before it's too late ><.. i know im still a good boy and that will never change ever...
and i will never turn bad(although i don't even consider what I'm doing...

Random Quote i made up
What they don't know won't hurt them but it will eventually hurt you.

Insanity is nothing more then a foul feeling

The insanity in people may be overcome with another feeling, this feeling is known as courage, but until all of us have found this feeling we cannot make insanity disappear.

I think i still love you

Yeah so even though the person i'm referring to isn't reading this, i think i still like her... but to be honest idk.. == i used to think about her all the time and stuff... but in the end i stopped thinking about her that much... if only i knew if that person liked me... then life would be so much easier.

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I wanted to take your path, and i did... but later i found out i was going through the wrong path and it lead me astray from my original intentions...and now that I've realized my mistakes, i will walk another road back my original plans but until i find that path i am still lost.

Mixed feelings

Ever had those moments when you don't know whether you like someone or not?
you question yourself about if you truly have a crush/love that person but you can't really put your finger on which one it is?....
Well I have.. I used to get questions from people asking me "How do you know if you like someone?" and I used to reply "Well you just know... it's a feeling of liking someone" or "Well you find everything about them cute and attractive(or something along those lines)," but after a while I met this girl... at the beginning i really liked her...although I couldn't get past the stage of friendship(not like I was trying but yeah...), then we grew separate and yeah.. we still talk now and then(in class) but that's about it.

So after we grew separate I stopped liking her. However after a while I kinda started to like her again but this time it was mixed feelings. So, I started to really question whether I liked her or not.. I started to ask around that same question that everyone used to ask me and eventually I looked into my past and realised what kind of mistake I made when I was telling them my answer.

So yeah, now I kinda realised that you can't really give out advice unless you have experienced it yourself.

All 3 parts pretty much sums me up

i wonder if anyone out there has ever liked me or cared... who knows... but yeah this post is pretty much about me telling everyone(or whoever is reading) how much i want to change... although i need more confidence... which i am trying to work on.

Hachi

So, today i watched a movie called Hachi:A dog's tail (2009 ver) and I SWEAR TO GOD IT IS ONE OF THE SADDEST MOVIES I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE... I FREAKING CRIED HARDOUT CLOSE TO THE END... and yeah.. don't call me a girl until you have watched this movie... it is really sad... and i have never cried like this over a movie ever since King Kong(back in 2005 or something).

soo i just want to say to anyone out there; you should watch this movie! it is one of the best movies ever!

so i found this on tumblr..

Ever have that feeling

raynaroxanna:

Like you don’t know what’s going on anymore. Like you don’t care about anything anymore. You’ve lost motivation to do anything. You’re mind is set on too many things that you are confused about your feelings, and you can’t explain how you feel either. The feeling of emptiness, and feeling that barely anyone is there for you. Feeling that no one understands you anymore. And it seems like there is nothing to look forward to anymore.

and IMO its soo true!!