Friday, December 27, 2013

Fail-safe environment

Can't think of a better name for this, but, that's the name as of currently. I might change it later.

Today I had an interesting idea. The idea is simple. Have an environment (not necessarily physically) where you can fail one million times, and still feel like they're inching towards their goals. Something where you don't feel pressured to have to succeed. Success should come naturally through hard work and dedication. I feel like this environment would be better suited for when you are trying to learn new skills, or gain new knowledge, etc. Take any exams or assignments in most first world countries. You learn content for one term or one semester, and you take a test or do an assignment based off what you've learnt. Seems like an okay concept. The problem is teachers only go over this content once. The rest is expected from the student to study -- even if the student does not understand or know where to look for the answer. Going over content once is fine. Just... it just needs to be executed right. e.g. not going too fast or not emphasising important information enough.

I would also like to add that this includes environments where people can avoid that awkward feeling. Much like how you feel when you're doing something weird around a friend. You just don't feel it.

Why did I come up with this idea?

Initially, I started talking to a friend. I explained a study1. I blanked out half way and stopped talking because I realised was talking. I don't talk much in case anyone is wondering. For most people, the 'I just realised I was talking, and now it is dead silent.' would be awkward, if you are talking to someone you recently met or do not know too well. My knowledge, from watching many videos, and reading material about confidence, lead me to just push on and not say "Shit. I forgot what I was going to say next." Instead, I just took a moment to regain my composure and continued talking. Happened twice. Once with someone I just met, and recently with a friend.

As mentioned above, this can be kind of awkward. However, because I was with a friend, I realised that I can make mistakes and that person would not give a fuck.

If you didn't get the point, then it basically means: That's where I got the idea from. Without the feeling of awkwardness, a lot can be learnt. I just put it into a different frame/context for more people to understand it.

To summarise, the idea is to have an environment -- not necessarily a physical one -- that can  accommodate (if that's even the right word) growth. This all needs to happen without the feeling of restrictions; namely: awkwardness, and pressure. 1 If you google 'The Negative Effects of Income Inequality' you should find a web page with a picture of a monopoly board on it. Other pages also have similar information... but I haven't checked those ones yet. You have been warned.

Sunday, December 15, 2013

SO MUCH RELIEF!

Update: I just realised I didn't add much information onto this post. I'm rewriting this whole post. Original post at the bottom in italics.

On the day of when the exam result came out, I was shocked; It was unexpected. I passed by -0.5%. Yes, you read it right, negative zero point five percent. Basically, my friend told me a few days after that it was a considered pass. I initially thought it was rounding up but I could be wrong. Either way, pass ftw. Anyways, my reaction to this was ecstatic. I was literally fist pumping, jumping in the air, smiling like child who had just received a really REALLY REALLY large lollipop. (I didn't use other adjectives because I believed it didn't emphasise it enough.)

Initially, I thought I would fail the subject -- by approximately 3-6%. I actually thought I would fail two of my subjects, but the focus really is on this one subject since it was a freaking -0.5% pass. The main reason to why I thought this, is that I was doing very poorly. I was skipping tests, (Not intentionally, I didn't know they were on.) did poorly on the ones I actually attended, did extremely poorly on the in class exams. I think it was the group assignment that got me 98/100 was the thing that pushed me up to the pass. Thank you older female(I will not name her because I don't know if she wants to be named or not.) that did most of the work. I should have put 31% for her part of the work when we did a peer assessment and everyone else 23%.

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I just.. I'm so happy right now. I PASSED A SUBJECT I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO FAIL!! LIKE OMFG. DO YOU KNOW HOW HAPPY I FEEL RIGHT NOW?!

Saturday, December 14, 2013

Hate and Growth

First off, the title is misleading. This usually is associated with "Hate fuels growth." This isn't the case with this particular post. So onto the real post.

In the past, I used to hate mainstream song, because other people hated it. I guess I was a sheep. I started liking some mainstream songs again, realising that I actually like some of them. Though I don't listen to them much, for the reason of not supporting massive companies. Here's how I realised. Everyone remember the song Friday? The song that everyone hates? Yeah. That one. I hated it too. Gosh that was bad. I still dislike it but I just kind of ignore it now, since it doesn't really affect me in any way. Also, If I don't like the song, i'm not obliged to listen to it. Well... She released a new song called Saturday. Now don't think this was an unoriginal song. It was funny as hell if you got most of/all the jokes. This new song was to mock the song Friday. Many people did not understand this. Roughly 40% if you looked at the dislike bar, and quite a number of people if you read the comments.

That dislike bar says a lot about people. Most of them actually came from Friday(For future readers, Friday was released about 2 years ago when she released Saturday). However, on the flip side, you can see about 60% of people actually have brains, and understand the jokes.

Anyways, I got off track there. So basically, after realising that I had a hate that was cultured from society, I stopped hating and grew. I started thinking for myself a bit more. It was a lot more difficult to how I made it sound in this post, but that's the general idea. So I guess my message to you is to  have your own brain and don't follow bandwagons. I can think of other bandwagons too. Think of Amanda Todd. She died because of bullying. There was an uproar about her. A lot of other people have suicided due to bullying as well. Did they get the attention they need? No. Will bullying stop? No. Obviously I can keep on going to things like deaths in Africa due to starvation/malnutrition, but i'm not going to.

My point is, don't follow bandwagons or ideas because they are popular and you just want to follow the crowd. Follow an idea or a reason based on your beliefs. If you currently don't have any, like I did, just take a few moments -- whether minutes, or hours, or even days -- to think about whether you want to follow this idea. Even if that idea might be a bandwagon. Learn from your hate and mistakes, and take them as a lesson for future usage. Well... this took a dark turn.

Yeah. Still sort of working on my grammar. Sort of.

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Not knowing much about life.

So there is lots that I don't know. Recently, I found out that I have a poor understanding of the world. This has been proven time and time again, by several people. Some a CEO of a company, some friends of an online game. I tend to not listen to my parents, because I just don't like to. Not a very good reason, but you know... it's a reason built into my brain.

An example that happened just a few minutes ago, was me understanding the trading post of the Guild Wars 2 game. Obviously, most of these insights I already knew from reading about. There was lots of conflicting arguments, and well, we agreed that we had our methods. I just ended up saying my method was the lazy method(Since I don't really want to spend more than 5-10 minutes on the trading post daily). During this moment in time, people form my guild told me things about economics and the stock market(because I brought up the topic of learning stock market and economics). One member warned me that some guy lost 2 million dollars(real life cash) in playing the stock market, and he is addicted to it. His dad doesn't care because he is rich. Someone else did say to me, long term investments are fine. This topic went on for about another minute or two.

This made me realise that I don't actually understand much about how the world works, and the dangers associated with it. Much like my misconceptions about the stock market, I should be cautious of any new ideas I may have.