3 FUCKING WEEKS!

Okay soo all i need to do is survive this thing for 3 weeks and then i get 5 days of my holidays back == FUCKING BULLSHIT

ARGG!!! I CANT STOP RAGING ABOUT THIS!!1

FUCKING WHATS REALLY BULLSHIT IS THAT MY MUM FUCKING MAKES ME GO VIETNAM WHEN I SAID THAT I DIDNT WANT TO(SHE ASSUMED THAT ME NOT HAVING ALOT OF WORK DOESN'T MEAN THAT I DON'T HAVE ANY WORK!!!)

FARKING HELL MAN!!1 SHE FULL ACTED LIKE 10 SECONDS AFTER I SAID IF I HAD TO GO THEN I HAD TO... BUT IN THE END SHE FUCKING TOLD ME THAT I DIDN'T HAVE TO GO

FUCKING I HATE MY LIFE ATM >.> WAS SOO PERFECT BUT NOW GOT SCREWED OVER BY ONE FUCKING SMALL MISTAKE >.>>>>>>>>>>>. ofmgofmgfomgfomfg!!

RAGE!!!

and then BOOM!

Soo this will be my last post before i go on a small trip to visit my grandma

One thing that i seriously don't want to do is go on this trip, but i probably wont regret it after, you know since bad stuff might happen if i don't go...

SOO one thing i will miss is all my friends and everyone that i love... atm its no one in my family because im going through a stage where i just don't want to be bothered by my family

soo yeh laters everyone who reads this :<

It's time to grow up

I've realised that I'm a growing boy, I need to stop being so childish with all my fantasies(man that sounds wrong), I am going to grow up today... I will become awesome... I MUST BECOME AWESOME!!, i don't want to live my childish life any more, I want to grow up and see the world properly, I want to know what its like to be awesome, I want to learn some more I want to do more things with my life then just imagine the things I want to do.

I WANT TO DO THE THINGS THAT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO BUT NEVER HAD THE GUTS TO...

When i grow up i wanna be a ____

lol idk about title, okay sooo i wanna become a musician, a dancer, a singer... something that relates to music... because im not a guy who likes to stick to theory related stuff... im more of a practical guy...

i want to practice... but idk where to practice, but theres one thing that i've learnt in my lifetime,

Life is too short to be stressing, live life to the fullest, the world is your playground and you are the little kid who plays with everything you find in the playground

It was only just a dream

yeh o-o i figured that i keep using song names as my title.. but deal with it! its the way i do things

soo today i woke up... idk why but the girl i've been trying to get over... well i started to like her again >.>

=.= farhh man idk why i even like her... its not like she even likes me... and yeh i managed pretty well for a couple of days but yeh...

Sometimes...

there are days when im happy and full of energy and some days im soo sad for no apparent reason and there are some days i feel like giving up on all the things I've been working on(e.g. social skills etc...)

those days are just the days i want to say I GIVE UP! but I know I probably won't... knowing me anyways o-o, mmm yeh i still want to scream i give up though

also idk why i blog.. no one reads it o-o soo yeh.. oh wells i guess its just a way to express myself when i don't have anyone to talk to(man i feel like a loner<< actually I sort of am when it comes to having friends to talk to about these issues)

soemtimes i just want somoene to talk too, you know one of thoose deep meaningful and thoughtful talks... not just "LOL hey... how was yesterday's party" kind of talk.

yeh so probably just a depression period, ill get over it eventaully

 

EDIT:(31/8/2011)  So its almost the start of spring and yeah i got over it, i know who my friends are... and i know what i need to do to continue living normally)

We all need someone to lean on

http://www.lifeschocolates.com/friends/we-all-need-somebody-to-lean-on/

Far away from here, cross country

So heres the thing, schools great... nothing bad has happened
but the thing is im getting soo sick of everyone around me... maybe its just a period everyone goes through but i seriously don't want to goto school anymore, i just feel like changing schools or doing something different... i got soo sick of repetition >.>

every sing day its
wake up
brush teeth
clean looks
go school
get through school and socialise
go home
sleep or play games or go library
go waste my life some more on games..
do hw at like midnight
go sleep
then it repeats...<< thats pretty much my week on weekdays

weekends aren't all that much different either... just take out the go school and go libary bit..... its all fun at first but honestly i've pretty much gotten tired of all this..

sometimes i just want someone to turn too so i can talk about this stuff...>.<

Haircut

Today i got a haircut at a different shop

WORST MISTAKES EVER


FARHH OUT !! NEXT TIME I SWEAR IMMA JUST GOTO MY USUAL PLACE...=.= AND NOT GOING TO LISTEN TO MY SISTERS ABOUT STYLE==

i swear i needa find my own style >.>(which totally fked up today >.>)

i'm starting over...

everything that i've done well i've never liked ...(except for a few things)
soo now imma start over and well think differently

number 2

okay so recently while i was half-asleep or asleep i had one of the scariest moements ever... o-o i think my mind was creating visions of 3-4 humans sitting around the room repeatedly saying "number 2 can save you!"... and just so you guys know idk even if i was sleeping or if i was half sleeping

but anyways i sent out an imaginary electric pulse(i call it an electromagnetic pulse)<< childish i know :P but still farhh it was scary... yet during the time i wasn't scared... o-o

in other words it should of been scary but it wasn't....

To never turn a blind eye

my only real goal in life is for when people ask me to help, i cant say no... if i do then its going against my way of life

pretty much this year//term//month w/e m trying to learn my manners/ how to be a gentleman and learning to not let people down.. thats pretty much all my aims this year

EDIT:27/3/2011
I've realised that I've turned my eye blind more then I used to do after I posted this, I think its because I'm better at what I do when I do it on the spot and not planning it out.

Project REWIND!

Okay soo recently i've had the strangest idea for something about changing the world... however i sort of need ideas

the only idea i have so far is the name... which is project rewind..
the meaning of the name is to rewind humans(pun/metaphor for turning humans back to the way we were)

the only idea i have atm is to raise awareness about the way humans are spenidng our resources... other then that i'm out of ideas...

but then again o-o i could probably elaborate on what i just wrote.. But idk

Rewind

yeh so before the last blog i haven't really been blogging... but i guess I can say that I've returned back to normal

i guess i can start attending school normally again and not skip out so many lesson(i didn't say days because i only missed out 1 and 2/3 days in total

Okay now for the real reason why i made this blog and i didnt want to continue my other one.
Soo recently the past 2 weeks or so, my mental health has worsened(so much that I wanted to scream(three times;in church and in school(maths and English)))< yay for triple brackets
LOL kk uhh soo i went to the doctors to check it out.. and aparently i'm having an emotion overload or i saw something emotionally disturbing(highly unlikely for this one)... i think i may know why im having the emotion overload but idk yet.. imma wait until the dust settles before i say anything...

BUT the second time i went to visit.. its apparently just a flu or because the weather changed... but that was referring to my physical state NOT my mental/emotional state.(yes... guys DO have feelings too, just because we don't show it in real life doesn't mean we don't have any)

Okay that's all imma blog about for today

Yeh... soo its been a while

lol k so i gave up on the #ep thingy

kk now onto a different topic

Soo recently i've been getting kinda sick(OMFG IMMA DIEE lol jks), okay soo today during school i had two tests but i only did one because i felt kinda sick and went home

to be continued when im bothered

QQ im losing my mind...

seriously.. in church today i almost felt like i was going to let out a massive scream... and i didn't even know the reason.... AND farhhh soo glad i didn't T_T please anyone help !?!?!? D:

... imma amuse i looked weird when i looked into my bag for no reason BUT that was a last resort and i had to do it somehow

argg!!! FARHH OUT T_T D: FML... oh wells i guess i can try to hold out for long enough

well at least now i know thta i have to fight the darkness until i win...
No more holding back for me!

LOL ONE OF THE MOST AWESOME DREAMS I HAD LAST NIGHT

okay soo yesterday OMGG one of the best dreams ever... o-o(soo far i have two) both involving two different crushes... o-o

okay so this one was about one of my old crushes and it was the most unexpected dream ever, o-o it didn't involve intimacy(just in case anyone is curious). My version of a perfect dream doesn't involve sex or w/e... I'm the type of guy that likes to talk to people and I'm not really into sex all that much and besides from what I've learnt about my dreams, is that they will never come true...

and D: whenever i sleep i only dream but when i wake up its like a nightmare(D: no seriously i have nightmares when I'm awake... its like insomnia but for the morning only)

NTS: check yahoo answers about my headphones by 12/3/2011

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20110302033305AAJd0JE

yeh useless post again o-o will delete it after i find a good answer

Ep# 7 - RAGE HEADPHONES D:

Okay so i recently bought some skull candy headphones... in my opinion if i had to rate them then... i would give them a 4-5/10(6 if i'm nice...)

Reason:

• the head sqeeze is somewhat annoying..
• the sound isnt as good as what people make it sound like..(maybe its just me but i don't like them)
• they hurt my head after 10 minutes... < but that might just be me..
• the vocals for certain songs are not clear

and when i compared the headphones to my speakers.. MAN there was a massive difference in the voice...
My speakers : More soothing then the headphones

the only thing i did like about them is the style.. BUT other then that they are shit... DON'T BUY THEM IF U EVER COME ACROSS THIS SHORT REVIEW!