Day 4: Doing things

Today, for me, focuses on doing things, and not just thinking about it. I theorise a lot about how to do certain tasks, but never actually do it. For example, I want to be an entrepreneur, but i'm not looking for any sort of job or experience in business or being "The Boss" or anything similar to that. I don't know what kind of investment I want to make, or want to create. However, I spend a lot of my time, theorising how or where I could start, without starting.

I'm so tired of turning a blind eye.

Mainly to certain situations(I would never turn a blind eye to someone who would actually need help) that revolve around me. I'm so tired of not saying anything when I know something is wrong.

Life is getting harder

Recently, the move from high school to uni has made me feel a lot more scared than any shift before. From primary to high school was relatively fun, but this is just too much for me to handle. I do enjoy uni because it's more free, but I also hate it because there's a lot of work, and I'm not used to the system just yet. Considering i'm studying IT, there will be lots of changes over the period of my study. So, you can imagine how much effort I have to put in compared to a business student. I maybe should have studied law, or something similar, but i didn't due to not getting a high enough ATAR.

Maybe i'm just scared of being an adult. Maybe all it really is, is me missing being spoon-fed by my parents. I'm not going to lie, I miss high school. I knew I would, I just didn't realise it would happen this soon. Compared to the primitive society, where the goal was only to survive and replicate, this one has made it so much more complicated in order for it to work.

The split

Currently, i'm thinking about what or where I want to go in the future. One part of me says I should go into video making(probably not the right term). Another part of me says I should go in IT; programming, designing websites, anything IT related. Yet a different part of my body/mind, says I should go into business, but of course there's also this one part of my brain that says to me, "You should go into Event managing." One last part of me tells me to become an investor, because of my merching experience in games(clearly not completely relate-able in real life, due to several reasons) . Also, a while ago, part of me wanted to be a museum curator... but I dropped that idea due to reasons i'll explain in the pros and cons list.

Now, let's look at this in a structured way.

1. Video editor
2. IT related job e.g. programming, designing a website, etc...
3. Business related job.
4. Event manager.
5. Investor 

Let's go about this the way they taught you in school.Pros verses Cons.


1) Video Editing

Pros of being a video editor:

•  Fun and Challenging.
• You can work with one team for the rest of your life (e.g. JKFilms). In terms of the editing bit, not the acting bit... that shit needs new people all the time.
• It's a creative art, you're only limited by imagination.
• If you get paid for it, time that is dedicated into making videos, is not considered to be a waste.
• You can always be learning new things while editing a video.
• The work place can be fun.

Cons of being a video editor:

•  If you have a low spec. computer, you're basically fucked. It'll be too laggy to work with.
• Can be tedious at times.
• Getting that timing correct is seriously one of the most annoying things you will ever have to deal with in life.
• The jobs out there are pretty competitive... but there is YouTube.
• It costs money to buy soundtracks/certain video clips, or to develop your own soundtracks.
• It is initially hard to find funding.

2) IT related job

• Lots of options
•  It is literally limitless the things you can do on a computer.
• Worry about the business world, and the ethics related to it.
• Can be worked from anywhere(sometimes).

Cons:

• Lots of options... is also a negative one because you might not know where to head for a job.
• Constantly changing. Might be hard to keep up.
• Hard to learn, but once learnt, it is powerful knowledge.
• Lots and lots of jargon, code, structures to remember. Kind of like learning a new language.

This post probably won't be finished, so I'll just post it anyways. IT IS 2:28AM here right now. So I may never finish this post.

Baby steps

I just realised how much I hated baby steps. Not the song, because that is one of the best songs, but taking small steps to achieve a goal. It just takes too long. My personality is; I want to get from point A to point B in the shortest time possible. If it takes too long, I'll probably get bored of it.

I want to put myself in the deep end as often as possible. I want to feel the pressure that builds up and work on making that feel on a much smaller scale than what it really is. I want to feel like I can do anything one day and not be completely scared.