Everyday

Quite recently, I've been feeling angry at myself. Angry at the things I would have done, could have done and should have done. I'm more angry at my failures because I used to just laugh it off as if it was nothing. Now, it's different. Now, I want fix my mistakes, I want to be able to feel like I've actually accomplished something over putting it off and saying "Oh you know, i still have time." I know that i may be running out of time.

I get angry at the smallest things, an example of this is me looking at my table. It is a mess. I know that many people out there have messy tables, but the fact is I'm not angry at the table. The table makes me think about myself, which is currently failing in every aspect(that being said, views will change over time, and i didn't want to sound pessimistic).

I don't know why i am so angry with myself. Maybe it's the lack of progress, or maybe it's because I am just sitting around and doing nothing. That may be the cause of all this anger.

We are all getting old

So recently i looked at my dad's hair colour, it was greyer than usual. It really makes me sad to know that one day someone bad will happen. So, i want everyone to know that: one day we all will grow old and die. DO SOMETHING WITH YOUR PARENTS BEFORE THEY DIE! REGRET NOTHING! DO EVERYTHING YOU'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE AND BEFORE YOU REGRET NOT DOING ANYTHING WITH THEM. Remember, although we all die at one point, we want to live our life to the fullest. That means, doing things for others especially for those who have done so much for us. I want to make my Mum and Dad proud before they die or before anything bad happens to them. I wrote up this post because yeah, it hit a gigantic emotional point in my body.

Camp

Camp was awesome! I think i had bonded closes to many people i wasn't close to but yeah idk. But that being said CAMP WAS AWESOME!!
So the story went along the lines of this:
Went on bus trip, was alright nothing special. Was kind of quiet though.
Arrived there picked our cabins and everyone had a random activity group because well we never had a decision to make our own group, or it was because the PE staffroom wasn't organised enough to give us a group.
Then we went to do our activities. My first one was Crossroads session. was not fun but hey, at least that was out of the way.
The second activity was challenge ropes where we had to go through obstacles at high altitudes.
LOL OMG SIMONE WAS THE FUNNIEST AT THE CHALLENGE ROPES, SHE SCREAMED THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE THING(sort of).
We had dinner, it was crap.
Then we had challenge night. Challenge night was awesome because our team won, I wanted to name our team poor hub but everyone agreed on Epic Fail. I think Friday won the most points for us.
And then we went sleep
The next day:
I had crossroads session again. was boring, half of us were half asleep.
then we had flying fox, man that was fun! but it was too short D:
We had lunch again, it was still crap
After we did mud world and kayaking. MUD WORLD WAS SOO DAMN DIRTY!! kayaking was funny because i kept on splashing at Jessica. After camp I still had black shit in my nose but hey it was awesome. After kayaking i tried to learn a new move but failed. I also tried to practice my hand stands.
We had disco later that night
Disco wasn't the best but hey i tried to get vincinet and david to dance but couldn't. I bboyed a bit at the disco.
The next day dablan was freaking annoying, went around knocking on the door shouting "WAKE UP" repeatedly.
We had leap of faith and abseiling. Abseiling was the only one that made me even partially scared.
Food was shit, nothing i generally liked.Not even the cereal.
After we did all that we went home, half of us were sleeping on the bus.

Overall camp was awesome! we had mad as instructors and yeah watching people scream was funny.

Camp soon

Excited but most likely will be disappointed because of the rain T_T
ahh well needa make a to buy list