Quite recently, I've been feeling angry at myself. Angry at the things I would have done, could have done and should have done. I'm more angry at my failures because I used to just laugh it off as if it was nothing. Now, it's different. Now, I want fix my mistakes, I want to be able to feel like I've actually accomplished something over putting it off and saying "Oh you know, i still have time." I know that i may be running out of time.
I get angry at the smallest things, an example of this is me looking at my table. It is a mess. I know that many people out there have messy tables, but the fact is I'm not angry at the table. The table makes me think about myself, which is currently failing in every aspect(that being said, views will change over time, and i didn't want to sound pessimistic).
I don't know why i am so angry with myself. Maybe it's the lack of progress, or maybe it's because I am just sitting around and doing nothing. That may be the cause of all this anger.
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