Choose your words

I tend to use words that don't make me sound smart or refined. An example is "I'm cheap" rather than
"It's efficient," see the difference? One obviously sounds more like a slob and will probably lower your social value in society, and the other will make it seem like you know how to use your resources. I want there to be a piece of technology that can allow someone to search for synonyms of a word and their meanings. Yes, I know there is a website based of this, but the words themselves don't sound smart.

Choice of words matter. That's why I chose my words 80% of the time before I even say anything.

Somebody, please punch me in the face.

I honestly need to wake up and start working my ass off here! I CAN'T KEEP GOING ON LIKE THIS!

I need someone to remind me

of all the important things. Like getting decent marks to get me a good job, or how important it is to maintain a good sleeping habit.

Applying everything in a game format

I stopped playing a lot of games, but i have been able to learn something from all my years of gaming. It is that; with practice, you can achieve anything, you have to learn from someone who is focuses on that particular topic -- you will get more out of it, and you will have to perfect the previous job before moving onto the next.

Poorly edited but it's 2am here.

A message to anyone feeling weak: Stand strong.

Something i'm starting to forget to do.

A message to future me:
You didn't go through all this shitty suffering for nothing. GO DO SOMETHING WITH YOUR LIFE! STOP WASTING IT! You should know that better days are here! DON'T FUCKING EVER GO BACK TO THOSE OLD HABITS!

I'll schedule a post in 8 months and 3 days from now. I hope i do change.

I swore to myself I'm not going back there. I refuse to!

I won't fall behind...I swear.

Lately, i feel like all my friends are beating me in all the aspects i was suppose to be good at. I feel like i need to work on it, i know i suck at bboying and making friends and whatnot. Honestly, i don't even know why i don't do it. What do i fear? Bleh >< sorry for not posting for a while, i kinda didn't know what to blog about, and sorry for the first proper post in 1(?) month being so depressing.

Fucking pissing me off!!

Why is it that family tells you off for the littlest of things? Fair enough, I didn't suffer war or whatever, but I spend my time trying to get good grades so Ican make your lives better in the future. When I say I can't think of it, or i wasn't paying attention, then get the idea. I DIDN'T FUCKING PREPARE A DAMN RESPONSE! I don't think past 2 am when my attention is diverted into other things such as studying or gaming. I fucking only sleep this late because i have 1/4 of my days(not including the time i spend sleeping) being told off by a family member. FUCKING PISSES ME OFF, EVEN WHEN I'M DOING THE RIGHT THINGS =.=. I can agree if i am gaming on a school day, but come on 5-10 FUCKING MINUTES WON'T KILL ANYONE! Tch, now I'm wasting more time blogging when i could be in bed by now(or at least brushing my teeth).

AND FUCKING HELL, ALWAYS FUCKING TAKE AWAY 30 MINUTES OF MY SLEEP TIME BY TELLING ME OFF FOR 30 MINUTES LATE AT NIGHT. GEEZ!

Bloody hell. My life has been going down hill ever since i lost my wallet. I honestly need to find it soon, or at least hope that someone will return it.

Sorry guys for not posting anything for a while. It's just i don't have anything to post about.

My brain = Biggest troll

Ahh well, I guess it's self karma. Basically for the past few days I've been having dreams of being in a relationship == BLAH sucks when you're single and your brain is trolling you.

Responsibility.

Just now, i decided to think about my future. I know i am forced to have more responsibility than the average man. Reason: i am going to be a heir of my dad's side of the family. Yes it may not sound like much work, but i have to support them through money, bonding and the occasional family fights. Lucky for me, my dad has the role right now, so i am safe for now. However, that isn't always going to be the case. I don't know if i will ever be able to rise to the occasion and support my extended family. But still, even though i know this will happen, i can't help but think about what i will be able to do. I'm just not ready for responsibilities yet.

Man i should start learning freerunning properly

Yeah, okay i free run like a noob and that's why i want to improve properly. I found out that my style of learning involves variations not the proper... soo this might get a little hard.