A wave of nostalgia just hit me

I think anyone who reads this in 2021 will know about the covid pandemic. But if you read this in the year 2050, if we haven't been taken over by aliens, blown earth to pieces, or gotten rid of the internet, then look up "Covid Pandemic 2021"

But that's not what I want to talk about.

We're constantly growing aren't we?

I looked through my old YouTube comments a while back. I saw comments from old guild members. I saw comments from strangers. I saw old videos that I used to edit.

Fuck I miss those days.

I guess we can't go backwards can we? We just need to move forward. That's the only way right?

I do wish some things were different. At least I'm sort of getting help now.

But hey! Good news. I've stopped being a gaming addict. It's manageable now. Bad news. I've become a YouTube watching addict.

Ha Ha. Funny I remembered this blog again a full 4 years later. What sucks about it, is that I can't find my old friends blogs. I think some of them have been deleted. Probably none of them are still maintained. I don't think any of them ever knew about my blog.

Ah well.

I do wonder what would happen if I told them in the past. Would some of them check every once in a while and think "Hey maybe I should check on BlogSpot again. I haven't been there for quite a while"

Yes I know it's called blogger now. I still remember the time when it was called BlogSpot. Good times. I guess.

Anywhos!!! Thank you to the 1 viewer who managed to somehow come across this blog and read it up to this point! I don't know who you are, but i hope you have a good day today!

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It's been a while. Lately, life has become a lot more quiet. Too quiet. I actually realised I don't like the silence. I need a balance.

This post was written in 2017. I never published it though.

We were all right weren't we?

One more before I sleep tonight.

I'm looking over old posts, and blogs right now (I'm stalking old posts right now). The most recent ones were in 2014. I guess blogger is mostly a forgotten sight amongst people my age. I don't blame them, they've become busy with life, and blogger really isn't that popular anymore.

Anyways it got me really sad seeing how things can just be forgotten about. One of my friends who I still think is a cool person had this in her description.

"Photography is my passion. I hate being screwed over."

I see her on instagram from time to time, and think "Damn, She's moved on. Photography is a major part of her life."

I remember fondly about the times we would used to hang out. I remember we'd used to get pizza at a local turkey food shop. It was great. But now we've moved on. Old friends move to new groups, New friends create new groups. People move away to do their own things. The more I think about it, the more life is like a good TV series. Story arcs happen. Cast move on and characters must be written out of the series. New characters enter your life. Some characters are killed off for character development.

Life to me feels like a book with new chapters happening every once in a while.

I'm getting quite teary writing about this.

Memories are great.

Redo: Day 9: 10 people who have influenced me

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Posted on 9th April 2014

Please read the first one if you want to understand this one. The redone list looks like this. Still somewhat ambiguous but whatever... names are still made up. I literally searched up Names starting with *LETTER* and picked the first name corresponding to their gender.

1. That guy who talked in my tutor is still the most influential. I've talked about him a lot so I won't bring him up again. Original Number: 1
2. I think one of the most influential people in my life that I forgot about in the old list was a friend we'll call Addie. Addie was an amazing girl. She was several years older than me, but she was tiny like a midget. She basically made me become the person I am today. She influenced me to become dirty minded, which was funny. Because back in my high school days I would believe ridiculous things about girls, like how they were perfect. Heck she even made me get into pickup, which was very nice of her.
3. This guy (We'll call him Adam) who has been friend's with my since year 8. We don't really hang out too much, but when we do hang out and have experiences together, they're pretty cool. Adam helped me a lot when I was in my "pick up girls" phase. We both had a system that we didn't really follow, but it was fun to try nonetheless. Massive influence on my life. Just the way Adam sees the world is very different to most people. Original Number: 4.
4. Another person who I didn't add on the list was a data mining teacher at my university (We'll call him David). He was a very lenient teacher. That was my favorite aspect of him. I was really used to teachers penalising me for not completing my work on time, and submitting it in late. Which is fine for the real world. I don't mind that too much. But he gave me leniency during a time when I needed it the most. It was like the world was trying to bring me down relentlessly, yet he was nice enough to be kind to me. That kindness brought me back to wanting to do my work properly again. Note: I never actually did, but it made me want to again. I somewhat did because of it. I stopped doing work at 4am, if it was due the next day. Anyways David basically prevented me from further performing poorly.
5. Similarly, there was another teacher like that (we'll call Eric). Eric was the guy who replaced David in teaching data analytics to us. We were put on a big project that we had a whole semester to complete. Honestly I thought he marked too nicely. I had to be a leader in that group, and basically we sucked at being a group. None of my team members would do their work, and I was shit leader. But yeah. He kept a passion inside me growing. Making me want to get into data mining even more.
6. Another teacher... I know right so many teachers (We'll call him Gabe). He too was a nice teacher. His teaching methods was really down to earth and made our struggles feel normal. I remember once Gabe saying to the class: "I've been there, I've had those 3 am nights sweating and struggling at this assignments. I'm not here to fail you. I'm here for you to learn. If you don't want to learn then why are you here." He said something similar to that. He put it into perspective the importance of education by showing us that in the world, no one will make you become a better person. You need to do that yourself, but people aren't there to fuck you up(there are exceptions I know...) , and that if you're trying to accomplish a similar goal to them, they've probably felt the same struggles that you are feeling right now.
7. Richard White was very good with speeches. Nothing has changed about that opinion. Original Number: 2.
8. To Clarify. This was a girl (We'll call her Beth) I had met once while out with my sister. We were just chilling and my relationship with my sister wasn't good. Yet I found my sister's friend to be really awesome, with the way she talked and how she changed my view on the world. Original Number: 3.
9. The guy I met "recently" (We'll call him Barry) was a great part of my life. But times change, Barry and I don't hang out anymore, but he did shift my direction. Somewhat. Original Number: 5.
10. The simple pickup guys were influential, but not as powerful as I thought. They shifted my understanding of the world. It was pretty informative, but I never used that knowledge. Mostly because I didn't go out of my way to pick up people. Original Number: 7.

Extra notes:

The magician guy I saw did influence me, but that was during my "pick up" phase. I somewhat remember it but I wouldn't even put him on the list. He was just someone I saw who I thought was pretty funny and good at what he did. Original Number: 6.

2 posts in 1 Day? Wow.

I was reading through a few of my posts, and realised I actually want to do a few edits on them. I am going to not edit them unless i find it completely necessary. Those posts will have a "2017 edit located in them."

Post 1 Post 2 Post 3

Why? Lots has changed, but i don't want these posts to be reiterations of the changed me. I want it to be a snapshot of what I was like, and what I have become.

So yeah... with the exception of those two posts, no edits, unless it's to correct spelling errors or whatever. I will redo any posts that I really feel like need redoing.

Things that I want

I want many things in life like most people. I can't get them all. I'm okay with that for now, but I shouldn't be.

Anyways I want to list them out because I guess it's a reminder for me to improve.

• I want to get new clothes. The clothes i've been wearing have been the same for a few years now. Not much has changed, and I kind of want something different. Maybe a black shirt?
  
  I've been getting into shorts lately too.
• I want to fix my issues with my friends. Especially with my female friends. It seems like all the female friends I have, our conversations stagnate over time. Maybe that's natural ? I've never had enough female friends to judge that. I'm just glad i've had someone to distract me at least every year. I want to also stop falling into that habit where I must have a female friend to talk to.
  
  Not really with my family anymore. Don't get me wrong. They're great. It's just I need to deal with my own issues, and maybe that'll translate to fixing my issues with my family. I hope I can fix those issues before they're too late.
• I want a good car. You know... one that costs around 50,000 AUD? Maybe that's something I won't get for another 5-10 years, but hey... it's a goal. What sparked me to want this is actually because of a group conversation about how someone from my high school, who was the year below me, bought a very nice Audi.
  
  He's probably really deserving of it, and has worked very hard for it. But it sparked something in me. It should be noted that I don't want the car because of its cost, but most cars around that price range is generally nice. If there is one that looks nice that is also cheaper, then sure i'll settle for that one.
• I want to quit gaming completely, and pick up new habits to replace them. Okay maybe not 100%, but enough so that it doesn't affect my daily life. I'm taking steps against it, and they're working. I have a new hard disk drive and haven't installed any major games on it. I installed a racing game and a sniper game on the windows store, but never really got into it.
  
  I hope I don't relapse.
• I want a job. I don't think in my 22 years of living have I ever had a proper job. And by proper job I mean "I've worked there for more than 2-6 months and gotten proper pay for it." I don't mind inconsistency in pay, but if I do it would have to be for contract work, or project work.

I don't know. It's just encouragement.

Day 30: 10 things I hope to be remembered for

1. My work.
2. My help to the community
3. My personality
4. The ability to take risks
5. A company if I ever start one
6. Philosophical shit
7. The people I've touched
8. Saving lives, if I ever go into cancer data mining.

I can only think of about 8. I guess I don't really want to be remembered for much.

Day 29: Most misunderstood thing about me

I'm actually not sure. I clarify a lot of things when people say something wrong about me. Possibly that I'm an extravert? For some reason certain people I know think I am an extravert. I think it's because I talk a lot around close friends. I'm not sure.

Day 28: Love language

I haven't been in enough relationships to say what my love language is, but I think it's physical. I normally love to get touchy with a girl when I'm with them. As in hugging, cuddling, kissing, holding hands, etc.

Day 27: Favourite part of body

I don't particularly have one. Does the brain count? Because it's a pretty amazing body part.

Short post. Not much to say here, or i'm just lazy right now.