3 FUCKING WEEKS!

Okay soo all i need to do is survive this thing for 3 weeks and then i get 5 days of my holidays back == FUCKING BULLSHIT

ARGG!!! I CANT STOP RAGING ABOUT THIS!!1

FUCKING WHATS REALLY BULLSHIT IS THAT MY MUM FUCKING MAKES ME GO VIETNAM WHEN I SAID THAT I DIDNT WANT TO(SHE ASSUMED THAT ME NOT HAVING ALOT OF WORK DOESN'T MEAN THAT I DON'T HAVE ANY WORK!!!)

FARKING HELL MAN!!1 SHE FULL ACTED LIKE 10 SECONDS AFTER I SAID IF I HAD TO GO THEN I HAD TO... BUT IN THE END SHE FUCKING TOLD ME THAT I DIDN'T HAVE TO GO

FUCKING I HATE MY LIFE ATM >.> WAS SOO PERFECT BUT NOW GOT SCREWED OVER BY ONE FUCKING SMALL MISTAKE >.>>>>>>>>>>>. ofmgofmgfomgfomfg!!

RAGE!!!

and then BOOM!

Soo this will be my last post before i go on a small trip to visit my grandma

One thing that i seriously don't want to do is go on this trip, but i probably wont regret it after, you know since bad stuff might happen if i don't go...

SOO one thing i will miss is all my friends and everyone that i love... atm its no one in my family because im going through a stage where i just don't want to be bothered by my family

soo yeh laters everyone who reads this :<

It's time to grow up

I've realised that I'm a growing boy, I need to stop being so childish with all my fantasies(man that sounds wrong), I am going to grow up today... I will become awesome... I MUST BECOME AWESOME!!, i don't want to live my childish life any more, I want to grow up and see the world properly, I want to know what its like to be awesome, I want to learn some more I want to do more things with my life then just imagine the things I want to do.

I WANT TO DO THE THINGS THAT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO BUT NEVER HAD THE GUTS TO...

When i grow up i wanna be a ____

lol idk about title, okay sooo i wanna become a musician, a dancer, a singer... something that relates to music... because im not a guy who likes to stick to theory related stuff... im more of a practical guy...

i want to practice... but idk where to practice, but theres one thing that i've learnt in my lifetime,

Life is too short to be stressing, live life to the fullest, the world is your playground and you are the little kid who plays with everything you find in the playground

It was only just a dream

yeh o-o i figured that i keep using song names as my title.. but deal with it! its the way i do things

soo today i woke up... idk why but the girl i've been trying to get over... well i started to like her again >.>

=.= farhh man idk why i even like her... its not like she even likes me... and yeh i managed pretty well for a couple of days but yeh...

Sometimes...

there are days when im happy and full of energy and some days im soo sad for no apparent reason and there are some days i feel like giving up on all the things I've been working on(e.g. social skills etc...)

those days are just the days i want to say I GIVE UP! but I know I probably won't... knowing me anyways o-o, mmm yeh i still want to scream i give up though

also idk why i blog.. no one reads it o-o soo yeh.. oh wells i guess its just a way to express myself when i don't have anyone to talk to(man i feel like a loner<< actually I sort of am when it comes to having friends to talk to about these issues)

soemtimes i just want somoene to talk too, you know one of thoose deep meaningful and thoughtful talks... not just "LOL hey... how was yesterday's party" kind of talk.

yeh so probably just a depression period, ill get over it eventaully

 

EDIT:(31/8/2011)  So its almost the start of spring and yeah i got over it, i know who my friends are... and i know what i need to do to continue living normally)

We all need someone to lean on

http://www.lifeschocolates.com/friends/we-all-need-somebody-to-lean-on/

Far away from here, cross country

So heres the thing, schools great... nothing bad has happened
but the thing is im getting soo sick of everyone around me... maybe its just a period everyone goes through but i seriously don't want to goto school anymore, i just feel like changing schools or doing something different... i got soo sick of repetition >.>

every sing day its
wake up
brush teeth
clean looks
go school
get through school and socialise
go home
sleep or play games or go library
go waste my life some more on games..
do hw at like midnight
go sleep
then it repeats...<< thats pretty much my week on weekdays

weekends aren't all that much different either... just take out the go school and go libary bit..... its all fun at first but honestly i've pretty much gotten tired of all this..

sometimes i just want someone to turn too so i can talk about this stuff...>.<

Haircut

Today i got a haircut at a different shop

WORST MISTAKES EVER


FARHH OUT !! NEXT TIME I SWEAR IMMA JUST GOTO MY USUAL PLACE...=.= AND NOT GOING TO LISTEN TO MY SISTERS ABOUT STYLE==

i swear i needa find my own style >.>(which totally fked up today >.>)

i'm starting over...

everything that i've done well i've never liked ...(except for a few things)
soo now imma start over and well think differently